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Simon--er, no...it was Nancy Palmquist--said:
> Mark,
> 
> I know I will be sorry, but I just have to do this.

Eh, you won't be sorry, Nancy--no need to be.  It's me who should be
apologising, really.

Admittedly, I wasn't in the best frame of mind when it came to my last post
yesterday, nor the private email sent to someone in a similar vein right
after, which was even worse.  So yeah, my presentation style may have been
(okay, was) more than a bit rough.

I just get to a point every so often when I get really tired of cast
aspersions.  It's one thing when I actually do something wrong, but
when it's based on someone not even "getting" where I'm coming from (as
you obviously do, thankfully)...sometimes I handle that a little less
gracefully than other times.  And yesterday was very much a "don't have the
energy to be polite to someone that couldn't afford me the same courtesy"
kind of day.

I doubt I'll -actually- distance myself.  I was pretty darned hot-headed
yesterday, and that bit was more spur of the moment "I really don't give
a damn" than anything else.  Not the first time, though I rarely say it.
There was a public post I wish I had phrased differently, and a private
response I wish I'd never sent at all.  At the time though, I really was so
ticked that I was almost past caring, even as I really did care.  That make
sense at all?  Hope so, as it's something not easily elucidated--more
easily felt than explained.  All I know is I rather gave up on it, logged
out, and didn't bother logging back in until late, late last night.  I just
needed a break from it all.  It helped.

It's days like that I wish I could selectively forget the send button
-exists- in the first place.

And I've never (to my recollection) gone on the family implication tirade.
The others I'd cop to at one point or another in the past, sure.  I'm not
necessarily the most tolerant or level-headed person on the list, and I'm
aware of that.  However, I'm also not the complete bastard some people
would paint me as (and usually [and this is the galling part] over entirely
the wrong instances and situations).

Maybe I should check eBay and see if there's an Infusion of Patience up for
sale on the cheap...  Like printer toner, it gets used up awfully quickly
and feels -really- expensive when you try to get more. :(

Thanks for the reasoned post.  Gives me some perspective.  Sorry I blew my
stack yesterday, everyone.

And thanks for the compliments, Nancy, epsecially considering my recent
attitude.  Means a lot to me, and was very gracious of you.

Bests,

mark->